TM - 55 - Reflect on the past year in your muses life, canon or fanon.

[on_holy_ground]

Unfortunately, the majority of this last year I was deceased, only actually being alive for about the last four days. This makes giving a review of the year both quite simple and at the same time slightly complex as I recall nothing from that time. Therefore if there was anyone reading this who wanted answers about what happens after our death, I will not be able to answer them as perhaps the living were not meant to remember such things.

As for the four days that I can tell you about, I'm happy to say that I connected with several old friends and I expect that I have perhaps made some new ones as well. I've also been quite busy with the return to my duties at St. Julien’s and I'm hopeful that I have managed to help some people with problems that they are experiencing and will continue to be able to do so in the future.

Comments

[tr2-sheridan.livejournal.com]

A priest and you remember nothing from when you were dead? Would have thought a man of the cloth would. *hesitates* I died, I remember dying but then there was nothing until months later when I found myself alive again.

[on-holy-ground.livejournal.com]

The experience was much the same for me. I recall the men in the church and the fall of a sword, and then there is nothing until I came to myself back in the chapel.

I believe that the reason that we don't remember is that if we knew to much about what happened to us after death, and then had to return to life for some reason, it would be far more than we could handle. Perhaps we would even be unable to cope with our return as a result, and I think that this would likely be even truer when there is a large span of time involved such as you and I had experienced.

[tr2-sheridan.livejournal.com]

I guess that makes sense, Father. But what about Heaven? Even if you can't remember, do you think that you were there? Or was it just nothingness and that's too depressing to think that's all there is? I'm pretty sure I would've gone to the other place.

*surprised at himself for asking such questions, never having been religious*

[on-holy-ground.livejournal.com]

I believe that there is something out there waiting for us after death, and I think if nothing else, the experiences that you and I had prove that. Our spirits and souls went on after our bodies had ceased to function, so they must have been somewhere during the time that we can't recall or we would not be here right now.

Perhaps it is 'heaven', perhaps it is something else entirely, but it is definitely something that exists.

[tr2-sheridan.livejournal.com]

*thinks for a long time* Thanks Father. There's not been many people I've been able to talk to this about. Funny thing is, before I died I never thought about life after death or anything like that, and it's not like it's been an important issue since I came back, but I've wondered about it in the back of my mind.

[on-holy-ground.livejournal.com]

You are always welcome to any assistance I can give.

There are many people that don't consider it until the time is upon them, and then of course it is too late. You and I have been given a second chance, and I just hope that we can make the most of it.

[tr2-sheridan.livejournal.com]

I think...hope...I am. I do know that this life is way better than my one before even if it's going through a bumpy period right now.

Thanks again Father. *hesitates before adding* And thanks for helping Amanda.

[on-holy-ground.livejournal.com]

*softly* I consider Amanda to be a very good friend, and I am only glad that I could offer her some help to get through such a difficult period, and she will get through it, I have faith.

I'm glad that she has you to help her as well. Amanda needs more people like you that she can love and trust in her life, and who return that to her.

[tr2-sheridan.livejournal.com]

So do I, in her.

She saved me from myself. I'm not exactly a good man now, but I'm better than I was thanks to her. She's shown me real love. How to love and that I can be loved. I've been scared of losing her since I fell for her, and I'm going to fight for her all the way now.

[on-holy-ground.livejournal.com]

*smiles softly* I expected nothing less.

[tr2-sheridan.livejournal.com]

*shrugs* A lot of people do from me.

[on-holy-ground.livejournal.com]

I have been told in the past that I am not most people, and I don't judge people on their past regardless.

[tr2-sheridan.livejournal.com]

I can see that you're not. *offers his hand* Thanks again, I can see why Amanda likes you and thinks so much of you.

[on-holy-ground.livejournal.com]

*takes his hand, shaking it with both of his before releasing it and smiling* You are quite welcome. I think very highly of Amanda as well, despite our differences of opinion on certain things.

I am glad that she has someone looking after her again. If either of you need anything that I can help with again, please, let me know.

[tr2-sheridan.livejournal.com]

*taken by the enthusiastic shake, grins back* Differences of opinions are good, especially as I tend to share Amanda's on those certain things.

I will, Father. I hope to see you around.

(OOC: thanks so much for this, my pup's surprised me throughout all of it. Darius has really helped him. Totally unexpected.)

[on-holy-ground.livejournal.com]