CT - 10.1 - Distance
Apr. 24th, 2008 07:32 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
on_holy_groundI am not the same man now that I was when she fell in love with me. There are things about me that are so completely different from him that he may as well be another person altogether. He is a part of me, and yet separate in ways that are complicated to say the least. I cannot really explain it in a way that most people would understand, save perhaps one, but it is a fact.
It is this fact that is at the heart of the distance that is between us now. She came to expect a certain kind of treatment from me, and when things changed it was difficult for her to understand what had happened to the man she knew. I have tried to explain and to try and become at least some semblance of the man she loves, but it seems that I have been unable to do so enough to bring us closer together.
You see, we are now so very different from each other that it makes even everyday activates and conversations difficult for the both of us. It seems that we no longer know how to talk to each other without it ending badly. I take too long to do things, and she has little patience when it comes to waiting. We have both tried to overcome these faults, but it seems that we simply cannot change enough to suit each other.
I keep hoping that we can bridge the gap between us and somehow make it work, but it is becoming more and more difficult for us to understand each other. I simply don’t know where to go from here.
It is this fact that is at the heart of the distance that is between us now. She came to expect a certain kind of treatment from me, and when things changed it was difficult for her to understand what had happened to the man she knew. I have tried to explain and to try and become at least some semblance of the man she loves, but it seems that I have been unable to do so enough to bring us closer together.
You see, we are now so very different from each other that it makes even everyday activates and conversations difficult for the both of us. It seems that we no longer know how to talk to each other without it ending badly. I take too long to do things, and she has little patience when it comes to waiting. We have both tried to overcome these faults, but it seems that we simply cannot change enough to suit each other.
I keep hoping that we can bridge the gap between us and somehow make it work, but it is becoming more and more difficult for us to understand each other. I simply don’t know where to go from here.
